maturing

Today, for the first time in my life, I have made music.

It's like the news. You start with what is happening with you. The only things that matter are what directly effect change in your life. As you grow aware, you realize things effect other people that are close to you without effecting you directly. Then, you might become aware of your neighborhood, community, town, state, country, and then the world! The world is so overwhelming with news and happenings that it is unfathomable.

I started messing around with instruments, discovered intonation and pitch. Then I discovered rhythm and dynamics and so on and so forth.

Today, I made my viola do exactly what I wanted. Despite years of teaching and training, it took a few comments from a female German violist to cause this reaction in me. Now granted, the teaching is what enabled me to know what to do to get the sounds I wanted, but it took someone I knew for 15 minutes and will most likely never meet again to really make me listen to myself. I hope this isn't a bi-polar high. I don't think it is, because I had to work at it in order to make it happen.